I am moving at a snail's pace for GRAPEMO this year, but it's not for the lack of effort.
I've kept my document open everyday, all day this week, but somehow I'm only managing somewhere between 140-200 words a day. I will not reach my 5K goal at this pace. I don't exactly know what to do about it though. It's not like I don't know my story; I know everything there is to know about it. So why the heck is it so hard getting it onto paper right now? I feel like my characters are purposely cock-blocking me from my goals. As if this is amusing to them, watching me bang my head against a desk in frustration.
It's also not helping that a St. Patrick's day short story has been dancing around all shiny and pretty, tempting me to work on it even though all it came with were two little girls, a title, and a general idea. What good does that do me? If you don't have an entire plot, short story, leave me alone already
I really want to read a book this weekend, especially since I didn't get a chance to last weekend, but I'm already feeling guilty about using my free time to read instead of write. I suspect that any accomplishments I do have this month will be heavily lopsided.
I know GRAPEMO's not a race, but I feel like I've already ran out of time to achieve what I've set out to do. I have to keep reminding myself that it's only the 7th, I've got plenty of time.
I swear, I'm my own worst enemy sometimes.
Writer friends, how's GRAPEMO going for you one week in?