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My birthday is less than a month away now. It falls on Easter this year. It’s fallen on or around Easter several times before, but the most memorable Easter themed birthday celebration was in 1985. My sister was born less than a month before it and even though my birthday was technically the day after Easter this particular year, I celebrated it in my Easter dress with a bunny shaped cake and egg hunting.
The fact that I’m turning thirty this year feels a bit depressing. How have three decades of my life passed so quickly? Why do I feel like the last ten especially never even really happened? In my mind, I still feel a lot more like I’m twenty than about to turn thirty. What does it mean to be thirty? Do I have to start officially acting older? Will birthdays ever hold the excitement they always have for me again after this one?
I remember turning twenty-five and feeling like I was already having some sort of mid-life crisis. My life, as I’d planned it, was nowhere near where I thought it’d be by twenty-five. As I’m about to turn thirty, it still isn't. I have to admit this bothers me more than I wish it did.
I try to remind myself that life just happens. You can plan small bits of it, but it doesn't mean it will completely turn out that way. There are other factors that play into how your life turns out. No matter how hard you try to have absolute control of it, the truth is you don’t. These reminders feel harder to swallow with every year I age though. I feel like time is slipping away from me and if I don’t do something to somehow trap it and slow it down soon, it will be over before I know it. I don’t want to have reached the end with zero accomplishments under my belt, or none of the goals I’d hoped to achieve in life complete.
If I could go back to little kid Sarah and give her some advice, it’d be to: Stop wishing you were older so much. It’s not all that glamorous. And all those years you spent wishing for a future you’d later find was nothing like you imagined could have been better spent enjoying being a kid. Something you will miss terribly when you actually are older.
We grow up too fast, in my opinion. Turning thirty, already…. it feels like it happen overnight almost. *sigh* I hope my negative outlook doesn't ruin the day when it finally arrives.
Four things for ya’ll today 🙂
First and foremost, Happy Birthday to Anne (aka gracious_anne)! I hope it’s been fantabulous 🙂
Second, I have the next three days off of work and I’m ecstatic! Sure, tomorrow is going to be spent trying on brides maids dresses which I’m not exactly ready for, but it will be nice to see my sister and she’ll be trying on wedding dresses too so hopefully it won’t be all that bad. If pictures turn out okay, I’ll be sure to share. Plus, there are plans to go to a Haunted House Saturday with our neighbors and I really hope we actually end up doing so. It’s been too long since I’ve been to a Haunted House and the last time I went to the one we’re going it was AWESOME!
Third, what makes me even MORE ecstatic (and has been all week) is that I’m now part of a crit group along with Heather (aka edgyauthor (who was already my crit partner)) and Patricia (aka poseiwriting). We’re currently calling ourselves “The Ring,” though I’m not sure that will hold? Heather’s comment behind it sold me completely though… and I quote: “When people ask, “What, like the movie?” we can respond in our best creepy-voice, “No, SCARIER, because we’re WRITERS.”” It’s so true!
Anyway, I’m super stoked to have a solid support ring and hope that it only encourages me more to finally finish this darn novel and release it to them. Their excitement over just the synopsis means the world to me and I really hope to not disappoint in the end!
Fourth, yesterday Rachel Hawkins (author of the HEX HALL series) announced an ARC giveaway for DEMONGLASS (HEX HALL Book 2) HERE in honor of “Small Son’s” 5th Birthday. I entered (naturally) and you should too! The cover is awesome and I already read book 1 and LOVED it – one of my favorite books of the year honestly. You won’t be disappointed. The contest is only open to the US (sorry everybody else), but there are 5 ARC’s being given away and all you have to do is hit enter to win on Goodreads.
Alright, that’s all for the night. Now I really need to try and finish this Halloween short story so I can actually post it in the next three days for you guys!
Peace – Sarah
P.S. A really inappropriate plot bunny will NOT leave me alone these days. That ever happen to you guys? Something you DEFINITELY wouldn’t write following you around like a sick puppy?